When does a woman begin to evolve? What does it mean for a woman to evolve?
Being brought up in a society which is predominantly patriarchist have caused us to resist, be confused by or ignore the femininity present in each one of us. This is true for both men and women. Rules and the consequences of breaking them have been so deeply ingrained in women right from our childhood. So much so that we end up living lives set to someone else’s tune, not knowing that we have a choice, a choice to discover our own path.
Pubescent girls grow up believing that their bodily changes are something to be ashamed of. Menstruation, the sacred ritual in which the female body prepares itself for creating life is looked upon as taboo. Is it any surprise that women feel disconnected from their innate power and feminine self? Is it any surprise that for many us guilt and self doubt is second nature? What we see here is a disconnect with the natural self. In other words, it can be looked upon as a disruption in the flow of energy /prana/life source.
I spent 12 years in a role that I could not connect with. The company was the best in its field, the compensation was great, but I was not happy. Yet, I stuck around. Why? Thinking back, I realise that it was due to a potent concoction of lack of respect of self, lack of confidence, resistance to change, self doubt and guilt.
So when does is begin? This journey towards evolving? In my opinion, it begins with awareness. This awareness can come anytime regardless of circumstances but purely dependent on how ready you are to receive it. It is an awareness of the self, this being , that is connected to the universe and holds so much power. By power, I do not mean that you suddenly start spewing spells and making potions out of toads and lizard tails! There is undeniable power in every woman, the power for transformation .. transformation of our lives and those around us through love. Aren’t we naturally made for creating life after all?
A health condition changed my perspective of how I was treating life. What was I doing? Where was I going? How am I contributing to the greater good? I did not have answers.. and thus began my search. Though I did not realise it at that time, I had begun my journey. The first thing I did was to join a dance class. I had learnt Bharatnatyam as a child, but could not pursue it. So there I was a 30 something mother of a 4 year old learning dance with kids and girls half my age. It is said that when the student is ready, the master appears. And so it was how I found my guru, a thousand thanks to the universe!
I resigned , joined a start-up, worked in unchartered territories, made mistakes, learned a lot and left that job as well. I lost my way, trampled about, hurt people who cared for me. I was so tuned into what was going on with myself that I was oblivious to what was going on around me. And then, one day realisation struck , followed by waves and waves of implosion. It was then, that I realised that I was at a turning-point in my life.
The key is acceptance of the self in its entirety. The masculine and feminine, the light and the dark. They are both different sides of the same coin, two parts of a whole. With acceptance comes the flow of love and awareness. This is not a one time recipe, not at all. It is a process and a life long one, withdrawing, expanding, constant in its change.
I spent a lot of time with myself, in-order to get a clarity on what I wanted to do. The process was not easy, there was a lot of introspection, it was traumatic and liberating at the same time. Finally, what came out of the ashes was clarity. I wanted to help people and I wanted to do it through something I was passionate about. That was art.
2 years later I have a diploma in Expressive Arts Therapy and am pursuing a masters in psychology. I am also working with children in the theatre space. I am able to give so much more to my family and friends because I was able to accept myself and love myself. I forgave myself so that I could ask for forgiveness. There is still a lot more that I want to do. I am looking forward to life and excited about what it has to offer. Life is beautiful.
I believe in the transformative power of the arts and that everyone is innately creative. I believe that acknowledging this creative side will open portals into your self as well.
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